Lazily Focused.

I'm probably number 1 on the list of best procrastinators at BYU. I'm really good at it. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not.. but it doesn't change the fact that I procrastinate way too often. 

The real problem is.. it's all a mind game. Here's a peek into my mind:

• I'll sit down and do the homework that is due the next day, have extra time to get ahead on other assignment, but I don't. Instead I reward myself for doing my homework, by..well, not doing anymore homework. 
• I have a long list of things I want to do. Books to read and study, Spanish to learn, etc. However, when I do have free time... I decide to watch a movie, look up new music. I rationalize it to myself by saying, "You won't be able to do this for 18 months."
• I'm really good at planning, but I'm even better at not doing things when I planned them. I ask myself, "Do I have to do this now?" No? Then I do it later.
• Then there are the times someone comes and asks if I want to go out for ice cream, play a prank on someone, or watch a movie. Obviously all of those things are more fun than studying... so I go.
• I'm very focused and determined when I have a deadline over me... but not a week in advance. That's just how I work.

Bottom line. I'm okay with procrastinating, as long as it gets done. I don't want to look back on my college years and wish I had had more fun. I'm never going to be the student that studies all day, every day. Maybe I'll regret it when I start applying to PA Schools in a few years, but as of now... I don't think I will. 

And yes. I am procrastinating right now.