Something to Ponder on...

So I originally had posted a quote, but I found out that it wasn't legit. Sorry about that. But here's another one

"I am part of the fellowship of the unashamed.  The dye has been cast.  The decision has been made.  I have stepped over the line.  I won't look back, let up, slow down, or back away.  My past is redeemed, my present makes sense, my future is secure.  I'm finished with low living, sight walkin, small planning, smooth knees, tamed visions, mundane talking, cheap giving and dwarfed goals.  I no longer need pre-eminence, prosperity, position, promotions, plaudits, or popularity.  I don't have to be right, first, tops, recognized, praised, regarded, rewarded.  I now live by faith, lean on His presence, walk with patience, live by prayer and labor with power.  My face is set, my gait is fast and my goal is Heaven, my road is narrow, my way is rough, my companions are few, my guide is reliable, my mission is clear.  I can not be bought, compromised, detoured, lured away, turned back, deluded, or delayed.  I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of the adversary, negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the pool of popularity, or meander in the maze of mediocrity.  I won't give up, shut up, let up, until I have stayed up, stored up, prayed up, paid up, spoken for the case of Christ.  I am a disciple of Jesus Christ.  I must go 'till He comes, give 'til I drop, preach 'till all know, and work 'till He stops me.  My banner is clear.  I am part of the fellowship of the unashamed."

I can't wait to be a missionary.

Lazily Focused.

I'm probably number 1 on the list of best procrastinators at BYU. I'm really good at it. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not.. but it doesn't change the fact that I procrastinate way too often. 

The real problem is.. it's all a mind game. Here's a peek into my mind:

• I'll sit down and do the homework that is due the next day, have extra time to get ahead on other assignment, but I don't. Instead I reward myself for doing my homework, by..well, not doing anymore homework. 
• I have a long list of things I want to do. Books to read and study, Spanish to learn, etc. However, when I do have free time... I decide to watch a movie, look up new music. I rationalize it to myself by saying, "You won't be able to do this for 18 months."
• I'm really good at planning, but I'm even better at not doing things when I planned them. I ask myself, "Do I have to do this now?" No? Then I do it later.
• Then there are the times someone comes and asks if I want to go out for ice cream, play a prank on someone, or watch a movie. Obviously all of those things are more fun than studying... so I go.
• I'm very focused and determined when I have a deadline over me... but not a week in advance. That's just how I work.

Bottom line. I'm okay with procrastinating, as long as it gets done. I don't want to look back on my college years and wish I had had more fun. I'm never going to be the student that studies all day, every day. Maybe I'll regret it when I start applying to PA Schools in a few years, but as of now... I don't think I will. 

And yes. I am procrastinating right now.